I’m so down. I feel weak. I am at a point where I can barely think of what to say as if it probably doesn’t even matter. My mind is jumbled and I am in agony. I don’t even trust that God is on my side right now. I used to put my trust in Him. Sometimes I feel dead inside and weary. I hope I’m not lost forever. I have some big responsibilities and I fear I am messing up. I am praying for a sign. I try so hard but feel I am nowhere and I need to feel loved and looked after. I need hope and strength.