If you do this now my believe is you will have to come back again in another life time. Stop and think, to do it all over again. Until you push threw and overcome it, and learn from it. Because everything in life has a lesson in it if we only take notice of it. This life is a school house, and we have to take exams, if you fail it you have to retake it. In the end if you keep passing your exams, your purpose will be revealed to you. And with me it is passing it on to others, that need to know. We never stop learning. This is only my view on it. what do you think. Ray.