Giving up

[Givingup]

My name is Debbie. I've been suffering with depression for many years for various reasons. Lately I'm seriously suicidal and have no emotional or other support. Ive been diagnosed with Bipolar but I'm unsure since I don't have "highs". I haven't eaten all day which is weird because other times I nosh due to sadness. No one understands my struggles, pain, hurt and inner demons... I find myself all alone. I also come from an ultra strict religious home and though I am 40 they still have a strong hold on me. I was neglected as a child, went through hell on Earth when I was molested by a relative, went through a lot more hell as a teen and got married young. My ex husband emotionally abused me and slept around. I spent many, many years in court fighting him for my children's sake. And now one of my children who is married is shunning me. I have nothing to live for.

[jkl5500]

Please don't harm yourself. You have everything to live for! I am so sorry to learn of all the pain you have had to endure. Right now what you need is support. This forum is a good start, but hopefully you can find some support groups in your community. I'm sure you can find something with an online search.

You could also try your local church. They should be aware of resources to help you through this.

It sounds like you went through hell several times in your life, and kept it all inside. Talks with a therapist are needed to get you through this, in addition to whatever meds you are taking.

There are lots of people and resources out there to help you get back on the right track. And the people on this forum are very understanding and empathic.

I wish you all the best.

[Stilltrying_]

Ditto. Please use all the helplines in your country if need be. XX

[fauxartist]

I very sorry your going through so much suffering and pain, depression is a disease, and it is chemical, it can be helped with the right medication. Your not alone with your pain, glad your here sharing.

[Dubba61]

You've had such tough times and i do hope they are behind you now. Take one day a time and try not to "over think" things. It's not east i no. I,be suffered depression and anxiety for half my life. I,be been desperately thin and at times very overweight. Depending on how I felt at the time. I hope things get better for you.