This is my first time writing on this website, I am new. I honestly just feel so lost and stuck. I have not been diagnosed because I do not want to go to a doctor... I am pretty positive that I am dealing with an anxiety disorder. It is getting harder and harder to live my life and enjoy things in life. I get anxious every time I go to a class or work. It is hard for me to get myself out of my bed and go out into the world. I will spend days just watching tv alone in my room... I have mentioned to my loved ones that I think I am dealing with anxiety but none of them understand the disorder and they just think I am being dramatic.
I got diagnosed with PTSD about 4 years ago because of a bad car accident and ever since than I have been dealing with some type of anxiety but it has gotten worse this year. I do not know if it because I am about to graduate college and it is stressing me out because there is so much change that is going to be happening soon. I honestly don't know what to do...I just feel stuck and I don't want to feel this way anymore.
I get worried that my friends don't even like me and when I am about to hang out with people I always think they don't want to hang out with me. I get worried that my boyfriend of almost 4 years is randomly going to stop loving me...I can't control these anxious feelings I get all the time and I just want them to stop and I want to feel normal again.