Having a little good and mostly BAD day. Called a friend who understand my anxiety she wasn't home. And don't want to talk to her about this all the time. Even though she said I can.
Afraid she won't answer my calls anymore. I know she's got things she's dealing with, she's in her 80's.
I have let her know that I'm here for her also and I have been. Trying to not worry about what's ahead cause I don't know? I'm trying to get rid of the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop? i think this came from my childhood that my mom always blamed me for things. Even now I'm always trying to do the right thing because I'm afraid of being blamed?
It's became kind of a OCD kind of thing and I'm in my 60's and tired of always second guessing myself and other people not trusting what their saying. Doctors, lawyers, family etc
Thanks to anyone who reads this even if there are no responses. At least I got to get it out.