Feeling worse and worse

[KellyWhit282]

Does anyone else feel like they are losing control? I feel like I am hearing things, seeing things, and cannot control my mind anymore. I know it is probably the depression or the Effexor but I’m scared that I am truly losing it. I wonder if I need to go inpatient in order to help me but I feel that would be so embarrassing.

[Agora1]

KellyWhit282, when we get to the point where we feel totally helpless and out of control, sometimes in patient is the best answer. It was for me. It is nothing to be embarrassed about although the unit does protect your identity. I knew I had gotten to the point where therapy and meds were no longer working. Crying every single day, losing control over my emotions. I asked my doctor if I could sign myself in and he agreed the time had come for 24/7 mental care.

I used the time I was in the hospital to work on myself. I asked for no visitors as this was going to by my time to get better. I attended each and every session whether it was arts and crafts, music, or intense group therapy. Your day is structured which is important in grounding you and not having any surprises or changes which exacerbates anxiety. Medications are more able to be controlled under medical supervision. Trial and error are done under the safety of being in patient.

Talk with your doctor, weigh the pros and cons of going in patient vs day hospital. I wish you well. Do what it takes to get better for yourself and your family. You are important ..I'm here to support you. xx

[tashalyn in reply to Agora1]

That’s a very good advice agora1

[Agora1 in reply to tashalyn]

Thank you, it's all about what we experience ourselves that may help others. xx

[KellyWhit282]

Thanks! How long were you there? I’m afraid to go for a long time. I have kids and don’t want to leave them for a long time.

[Anxiousjy]

Do you really hear and see things or you tell yourself that you’re going to?

[KellyWhit282 in reply to Anxiousjy]

For example, sometimes when I look out the window, I see a car drive by but then it disappears so I don’t think I really saw one. Or I’ll see things in my house but I know it wasn’t real. Last night I heard a knock on the window but no one else heard it

[Anxiousjy in reply to KellyWhit282]

You sound just like me when my anxiety was high. Were you diagnosed with ocd? You’re doubting yourself. No, you’re not crazy. Sometime when our anxiety is high, our senses our also sensitive. It’s called hyper awareness. Have you mentioned this to your therapist or psychiatrist,

[Windy101]

In patient sounds like a safe place where you can be treated for these symptoms. They must be scary trying to handle all on your own. I understand your embarrassment, but truly there is nothing to be ashamed of. People go there every day. I think this is a good solution for you.

[Needhelp44]

Hi Kelly, I am so empathetic to your pain. I have been on many meds including Effexor for many years. It does not cause the symptoms you mention. I am not a doctor however you are describing Schizophrenia and the med helps exactly what you are experiencing.. Let me know if I can help.