i wonder why some people feel empty even though they have almost all means to entertain themselves. some people are even surrounded by very supporting friends, family, pets, community. some didn't even experience such trauma but why feel empty? they could concentrate on their work, studies, etc., but why can't they ignore the destructive thoughts?
ah. i'm tired being like this.
im tired of envying people who got their shit together. they even got worse trauma than mine, but they still manage to live and be optimistic about everything.