So it's Friday nite and I'm sitting at home all by myself with no one to hang out with or to keep my company. I have this guy that I'm seeing but he works at at night so we don't get to spend tons of time together. He's a good guy and we have only been seeing each other for a month but hes been hurt from past experiences and wants to take things extremely slow (which I'm not used to). We always have a great time when we hang out and we txt everyday but I feel like it's not enough and it makes me feel like he's really not that interested. I don't know if that's the case or if he is just one of those people that's needs alot of alone time. I'm trying my best to be patient bc i really do enjoy our time together but when I'm feeling down like today its when I feel like i need someone the most (to make me feel like i matter). All i have are these repetative negative thoughts of how nobody wants to spend time with me, nobody likes me, i dont have any friends, nobody will go out of their way for me. These are really awful thoughts and feelings, i just want these thoughts and feelings to go away. I don't have many friends either and the ones I do have all have lives of their own, kids, husband, work full time and so on. And now that I'm writing this I think of what I would say to another person who was telling this story. I would tell them to not put their self worth in another persons actions or opinions. So how is it that i know this, yet have so much trouble practicing it???