Spinning

[Beerglass]

So it's been 2 weeks of spinning in my disease. I can't relax, I have had a migraine now for days. I'm seriously depressed I don't want to do anything. I can't talk to anyone. I have been off work now for 8 months because of being harassed at work from my co workers and my customers. I developed expoding rage and anxiety. I don't ever want to go back to work. Now the meds I'm on make me sleep 12 hours every day if I get less I'm exhausted. The other meds that I take make me dizzy. I wake up with a weak stomach every morning very little energy and motivation. I got a dog to help and she has been a great friend she actually has been keeping me alive. I recommend getting a dog. I got mine from the humains society she was discarded because she couldn't have puppies anymore she was being used as a puppy mill. Anyway she is the most lovely addition so kind and gentle and well trained. My disease keeps me away from people because nobody wants to be your friend unless you have something to offer them like having a pool or hot tub or cottage they are all fake people. The other types of people want to take what's yours, they are nice because you are giving them money. That's what life is about is using people. I hate society.

[Justwannabhappy]

I have 2 dogs and when I'm depressed I can't e joy them.

[WestyCMass in reply to Justwannabhappy]

I find my dog to be a big help but the flip side is the care he needs. Sometimes it feels like a burden but if you want unconditional love, a dog certainly knows how to give it.

[WestyCMass]

Hang in there. It sounds like you need to have your meds adjusted. I was on that hamster wheel (spinning in circles) fur tears. My doctor was over-prescribing meds. People tried to tell me but I was too tired to think about making a change. Then I tried to get a refill and his office told me he could not refill that class of drugs. I was confused and could get no answers. After several Google searches I found out his office was raided by the FBI! I had to find a new prescriber and he kept me on the same meds but changes doses and types (1 to time release).

I strongly recommend you get another opinion on your meds.

I have been fortunate to have some really good people in my life. Don’t give up on everyone. Are there any groups you can go to? I used to go to Al-Anon (relationship with someone with who was an ocholic and drug addict) and those people are super nice and helpful.

There are some good, kind people in the world. Makes me think of Ellen Degeneres who ends every show by saying, “Be kind to one another.” Her show is wonderful. Sometimes is the best 60 minutes of my day.