So it's been 2 weeks of spinning in my disease. I can't relax, I have had a migraine now for days. I'm seriously depressed I don't want to do anything. I can't talk to anyone. I have been off work now for 8 months because of being harassed at work from my co workers and my customers. I developed expoding rage and anxiety. I don't ever want to go back to work. Now the meds I'm on make me sleep 12 hours every day if I get less I'm exhausted. The other meds that I take make me dizzy. I wake up with a weak stomach every morning very little energy and motivation. I got a dog to help and she has been a great friend she actually has been keeping me alive. I recommend getting a dog. I got mine from the humains society she was discarded because she couldn't have puppies anymore she was being used as a puppy mill. Anyway she is the most lovely addition so kind and gentle and well trained. My disease keeps me away from people because nobody wants to be your friend unless you have something to offer them like having a pool or hot tub or cottage they are all fake people. The other types of people want to take what's yours, they are nice because you are giving them money. That's what life is about is using people. I hate society.