I lay here and can barely get the energy to type this. All i know is that I battle emotions everyday and tonight, they are overwhelming. I feel so alone. I feel like a huge burden to everyone I know. I feel so unimportant, stupid, and worthless. I try and reach out to people but then i get scared, and my anxiety kicks in and i worry I am annoying then. So i go back into my shell and cry alone. I feel despair. I feel empty. I dont know what to do with myself and i worry this will only get worse. I cant pin point an exact cause of all of this, I think it's just a number of many different things. But what's the meaning of it all? I just dont know. But this is the worst I have ever felt, and its scary.