Venting

[ksturkey]

I just got kicked out of my house and can't find any work. Everyday it's getting harder to get up and look. I'm losing hope that things will ever get better.

[countryboy1]

Please don't stop venting, believe it or not, it helps. We are here to hear from you.

[ksturkey in reply to countryboy1]

Thank you.

[gerg]

Can you define what better is? A lot of times people think this way without knowing that they are setting themselves up for a trap. There will probably always be a “better”in your life, that’s what it is all about, but what do you measure it against? I know that I have been a heck of a lot worse, so I’m already better.

[ksturkey in reply to gerg]

Better, as in stable. I’m being put on medication next weekend and I’m enrolled in online college. I only have a job left. I just want everything to be stable. My mind, my life. That’s my ‘better.’

[countryboy1 in reply to ksturkey]

Your goal is stability, please write that down. Then describe what being stable means. Steady job, steady housing. What does stable mean to you. If can say this, take your written notes directly to God in prayer and ask for help in achieving this goal. Then start writing what steps do you need to take to reach stability. Let God direct you. Once God helps you to establish your steps, ask God for strength to complete the steps.

[IChoose]

You need someone to walk with you through this. Glad you are here. I haven't been hired yet either. It can take sending out seemingly hundreds of resumes.

[Willem22 in reply to IChoose]

Two years and maybe two interviews. Now I work a retail job with maybe 30 hours a week if lucky. I tend to tie my esteem to what I do for a living and how much you make. Silly, but that is how i'm wired. One of many irrational thoughts racing any given time in my head.

[IChoose in reply to Willem22]

I'm wired the same way and have had racing thoughts for a month. Zoloft helped a few years ago but could not tolerate side effects. I wonder how much of my stress is from within. Thank you for sharing so openly. I understand myself a little bit better.

[NuckinFuts]

Keep getting up and keep looking. Last year sucked for me. My girlfriend moved out, I got really depressed, anxiety started kicking in, I lost my job, ended up losing my house, and had thoughts of suicide. I lost that job last June and took me 4 months to get a job. I was a mess. I still struggle with anxiety and depression. Some days are worse than others and most of them days were hell. Nothing going right for me. Kinda what helped me was I kept telling myself “you think you have it bad? A lot of people living around the world have it worse than me” And I kept making myself get up and go because I have 2 sons that live with me one is 12 and other 13, plus my 21 year old daughter and my grandson. I didn’t wanna leave them here alone without me in this messed up world I brought them into. That cured my suicide thoughts I think, and slowly and gradually I was feeling better m, got a job, fixed my truck. I’m still battling depression and anxiety just not as bad as I was. And I’m not on any meds and haven’t talked to a Dr about it. So if I can do it and it was hell, then I know you can do it. So don’t give up and don’t let it get the best of you!

[kenster1]

sorry to hear that.have you family or friends to stay with.if not you should try get into a homeless unit.things will get better I'm sure life will turn around for you.just try stick to a plan.

[ksturkey in reply to kenster1]

I’m currently living with my boyfriend. Thank you for caring about my well-being.