I’m back again after a while. I still feel suicidal and depressed. Today is my down day. I feel as though there is no reason to live. My girlfriend hasn’t been able to talk for a while since she’s in a personal situation (we’re long distance) & my mother is still being stupid about her ex. All of this is giving me anxiety & making me feel unloved. I hate my life. My heart legitimately HURTS. I’ve been laying in bed all day feeling mentally & physically ill. I need help. I haven’t been to therapy since Dec & I’m missing it so much. My next appt is coming up soon but it couldn’t come soon enough. I hate everything & everyone. I don’t like life at all right now.