I'm 45 years old, and have lived with phobias, obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety, and depression most of my life. Lately, it's the fear of dying suddenly from some random, catastrophic health issue: heart attack, cardiac arrest, pulmonary embolism. I have real, chronic physical symptoms like chest pain and shortness of breath, and I never know if it is a result of something physiological or psychological. In the past couple of years, I've seen countless doctors, had all sorts of tests run, and everything comes back normal. Yet the symptoms persist -- as do my anxieties and fears.
But the worst part is that I am depressed and isolated. I am unemployed, separated from my wife, and living in a room in my sister's house. I don't venture out of the room too often. I am so alone and tangled inside my head.
Tonight it's chest pain after a day of unexplained pain in my right bicep. I'm scared and need a friend who can empathize.
Thank you for reading all of that; it helps to know that maybe there is somebody who can relate.