Its not yet a year since me and partner split after 15 years. He came to pick his things up early December stayed 4 hours and had his dinner and said we could be friends, but I can't be friends knowing he is still looking for someone else and after he had gone I took a backward step in getting over him. Whether it is this or just Depression but I have just come home from my sisters and alone again I have felt alone although been with family over the hoilidays) . I feel so bad it physically hurts inside being alone and feeling so depressed, missing my ex and feeling there is no point in anything at all when you have no one to share life with. I am now 65 and wonder if I could ever find love again. Sometimes I feel that I don't want to be here anymore feeling like this all the time, but I wouldn't do anything about it, just have to carry on struggling.