I had just texted a crisis line and had genuinely felt better. I was ready for change and wanted to get my life going again, but just now I had been pushed down mentally and mocked by my mother who barged into the room and started complaining about how lethargic I am, how I guilt trip everyone else, and how I blame everything else for my problems. She did not listen to me in one single thing. I just cannot get anything -- absolutely anything across -- and it feels so helpless because she is who I have to live with every day. I tried so hard to explain what depression is, what I feel like, how I feel so unenergetic, and all she said was that it is my fault and that I am guilt-tripping her. I am not close with my step-father and my biological father had abused me. I honestly feel like running away, with no destination. I feel so stifled without having any understanding people surrounding me. I wish so badly that I could be around more supportive people around me, and I don't know what to do anymore.