Unsupportive Parents

[fantasticamy]

I had just texted a crisis line and had genuinely felt better. I was ready for change and wanted to get my life going again, but just now I had been pushed down mentally and mocked by my mother who barged into the room and started complaining about how lethargic I am, how I guilt trip everyone else, and how I blame everything else for my problems. She did not listen to me in one single thing. I just cannot get anything -- absolutely anything across -- and it feels so helpless because she is who I have to live with every day. I tried so hard to explain what depression is, what I feel like, how I feel so unenergetic, and all she said was that it is my fault and that I am guilt-tripping her. I am not close with my step-father and my biological father had abused me. I honestly feel like running away, with no destination. I feel so stifled without having any understanding people surrounding me. I wish so badly that I could be around more supportive people around me, and I don't know what to do anymore.

[Hidden]

Hi fantasticamy,

It's hard when parents, who usually are a persons number one supporter, is the exact opposite in your life. Especially if you are stuck living with them. I understand you a little bit, I too live with a mom that can be a little unsupportive/not understanding and condescending at times. Do you have any close friends or other family members you can reach out too? Sometimes that helps me. It seems like the crisis line helps you...

Also try to remember you have to do what's best for you. Think positive thoughts, focus on yourself and what you need to do, so you can leave one day (not run away).

I hope your night/day gets better (not sure if your in a different timezone then me lol it's past midnight where I am).

[fantasticamy in reply to Hidden]

Hi nessi12,

Thank you very much for your advice, I will try to think about positive thoughts and do what I need to do to leave, rather than flee. I do have close friends but since they do not have the same condition as me, the crisis line helps me more. It's 11 pm where I am so it indeed is night still haha.

[Hidden in reply to fantasticamy]

Your welcome. I hope it helps. I try to do the same myself, I know it's easier said than done. And i'm glad the crisis line helps you, it is hard to talk to friends when they don't understand your condition or where you are coming from.

[Lexica02]

Hi fantasticamy

I am a parent. Please be strong. If you are not getting the support from them then you need to take advantage of this site, the crisis help line or any other source. Don’t runaway. It’s hard out there and things won’t get any better. Take care of yourself so you can have a decent future. Stay in school and work hard. Do it for yourself.