I so desperately want to find and be able to hold down a job that I’m passionate about. The past 4 years I’ve had various jobs whereby I’m excited to start off with and then 2 months down the line the tears start I lose interest can’t cope with people and then walk away. I can’t spend 2018 sitting in my house watching tv and pottering about. I need to focus on something. I need a purpose. I love helping vulnerable people and if I can make someone smile it makes me feel satisfied. Easier said than done I know. Life is passing me by. I’m constantly searching. So much I want to do but my confidence is beating me. I feel like I am a bomb waiting to explode most days. Anyone else feel like this?