Hello everyone. I am new here so this is my first time posting anything. I have had problems with depression and PTSD since I was a child. I grew up with a very abusive father and went through mental/physical and sexual abuse for many years. Eventually my sister and I finally told someone and he has now been in prison since I was 15. I am now a 30 yr old single mother of one son. Every relationship I have ever had as a teenager and an adult has been abusive in some form. It seems though that within the past year or 2 that my anxiety and depression has gotten so much worse. I feel like I'm falling apart on the inside. It is affecting my life terribly at this point. I can't keep a job due to my symptoms being so strong now. I never feel like I am really living if that makes sense. I isolate myself constantly, I only go out of the house for things I have to do. Somedays I can't even go do the things I need to do like grocery shopping or just any errand that should be easy feels so hard for me anymore. I feel so very lost and alone and I could just really use some support and any advice anyone has that could help me at all. I have been looking into therapy options and it's honestly so overwhelming to me just trying to find somewhere to go for help. I don't really have much of a support system which is why I am on here now. I would really appreciate any advice or anything anyone has to offer that could help me at all. Thank you all in advance and I hope everyone has a good day.