So Im going through some personal stuff that is becoming more and more real. It's unfair and I think of how my husband must be feeling and it makes me feel worse I wish I could take his pain away. Were not able to be together at the moment and it will be that way for a while and soon we won't even be able to talk for a bit. Notbecause of anything wrong between us it's because of a huge obstacle that we have come across. You could say we pretty much don't have the choice to be physically together but emotionally from a distance we are there for eachother. I love him so much my best friend and it's like im losing him although im not. This will be a long and tough journey ahead of us. When I think about it It breaks me. I know it's hard to understand because im not giving the full situation but it's all i can say at the moment.