Slow down

[Melissamart]

I recently lost my mom 9 months ago . I had bought I was over all this anxiety and depression and it’s just take its toll on me and my relationships with people. My significant other is so angry with me because I’ve let this control my life . I’m back in therapy and on medication to help level my head out and working on myself for the time being . I just wish my mind would slow down. I want to just forgive myself for pushing everyone that matters away .

[Agora1]

Melissamart, I am sincerely sorry for the loss of your mom. I lost my mom 7 years ago just before Christmas and the pain hit hard. Give yourself time to heal. It's still too soon. Someone who was always there for you has been taken from your life. It is very easy to push others away at this time. No one can comfort you, it needs to come from within you in it's own time.

I hope others around you respect your time to grieve. Like you anxiety took hold very hard and I found myself crying every day. It was definitely a time for therapy, meds, and healing for myself. There is nothing to forgive yourself for, it is a part of being human and losses. xx

[Angelica_Schuyler]

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, Melissa. I just lost mine in September and my anxiety has been through the roof, to the point where I can't focus on anything else but my worries. You can't control how you react to grief, and it's ok to take the time you need for yourself. Getting back into therapy and on medication will get your mind back to where it needs to be. Be kind to yourself and, again, give yourself all the time you need.

[Agora1 in reply to Angelica_Schuyler]

Angelica_Schuyler, (what a beautiful name) I am very sorry for the loss of your mother. Learning to accept losses of our loved ones is probably the hardest thing to do. With the help of counseling as well as time, we somehow heal some so that the pain isn't as deep. Now after 7 years for me, I keep the memories of my mom in my heart. Sometimes I will see or hear things that brings the memory to the surface, I take it then as a sign that she is always with me in spirit.

I'm so glad you found this support forum. Hoping we can help you through each step you take in finding yourself again. xx