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[Anxious4508]

Over the last few weeks I have begun to feel overwhelmed. My employment has been extremely high stress for over a year, and i’ve Long past the stage of burn out. I am searching for new employment but with that comes fear of the unknowns the what if’s. Will I actually find a job? Will I find a job I like? How much of a pay cut do I need to take? Will I still be able to provide for my family for my kids? How do I keep moving forward at my current employment? My mind will not stop racing, I cry all the time, I can’t eat, can’t sleep. It effects my every second of every day. I’m loosing my mind, I don’t know how to snap out of it. It’s the holidays and I just lay in my bed and cry, I want to play with my kids, I want to laugh, I don’t want to feel like this anymore!!

[Calgontakemeaway]

I am so sorry .. I feel your pain .. the last few years of my life have been spiraling downhill.. I’ve had anxiety and depression most of my life and last year after I almost ended my life , I was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder.. my children are both adhd and my son also is on the autism spectrum.. I’m a single mother , their dad lives out of state and I hardly have help .. I’m overwhelmed beyond belief. I also can’t stop crying and feel like a horrible parent .. my social anxiety prevents me from signing my children up for anything that I may have to socialize at.. I’m so ashamed .. I’ve lost two jobs in the last year .. I can’t function and I had my first ever counseling visit last week .. I pray someone can help me .. and I will say a prayer for you as well .. hang in there