My first post :-)

[MontanaGal1986]

Hi there. I have struggled with depression since the birth of my first child. It was treated somewhat successfully, eventually I stopped my medication. It got better for a little while, then it has come back this last year really bad. I am terrible at taking medication, but when I do take my medication, I feel great for a while and it's back to where it was. I recently had a hysterectomy, in fact, I am still on medical leave from surgery. I am having a hard time coming to terms with that, it was needed to help the pain I was experiencing, but still having a hard time. I tend to blame myself for a lot of things, I get angry easily, and I have a hard time being in public by myself for any length of time. I am looking for some support from those in the same boat. Thanks!

[Molldoll14]

Hi there! I am new as well and have yet to make my first post. I'm a little nervous about it. But I just thought I would reply to your post because I also had a hysterectomy so I know how that recovery is as well and how hard it can be. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression and every day is a struggle for me as well, especially my anger. But I try to keep myself busy and keep my mind positive and eventually I find that my mood changes along with it. Today I was having a particularly hard day with my anxiety but I just keep reminding myself that today is just a 'bad day,' and tomorrow will be better.

[MontanaGal1986 in reply to Molldoll14]

I try really hard to tell myself that tomorrow will be better. It's getting myself through the bad day that is hard.

[Molldoll14 in reply to MontanaGal1986]

I know exactly what you mean. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes. I'm still struggling to help myself with today's stuff that's going on and tell myself that it will be better tomorrow because right now I don't believe that but I just try to remind myself that with every good day there is going to be a bad day and it just makes me appreciate the good days that much more. What I find that can help me sometimes is writing in a journal. I write about my day (what pissed me off, made me mad/sad, and anything good as well. That way I am getting all the negative and bad thoughts down on the paper and out of my mind. I make sure to end every entry with 3 things I am grateful for. I've been really trying to be more positive because I feel like it is really helping to decrease my overall anxiety and depression. Hope that helped!

[MontanaGal1986 in reply to Molldoll14]

A journal sounds like a great idea! Thank you for the suggestion.