Head still like treacle, mind still stuck in the past, no forward vision, hardly ever has been, scared, confused and alone.
Only now do things from my past 'make sense' if you like, well, much of it doesn't, though no idea how this will help me now.
I've been such a fool and a misfit .................................
perhaps undiagnosed ??????????????????
Yes, I know about the "things in my past make sense." It seems like much of life is like that looking in the rear view mirror hey I know about " How will this help me now? i try to think about what has been good in the past and in the present as well. My big thing is guilt not about everything but..... but the main thing is that I have been there and just try to live one day at a time. Would you like to share about your present besides this?
We all know that we cannot help our feelings nor should we but coming to this site is a real act of courage.
No, the UK.
Treacle is like sticky liquid sugar, refined molasses, a bit like honey, perhaps brain fog would be more descriptive.
Right now life is a mess, realisations of so much wrong, home, finances, gender identity instability, and so much more, plummeted me into depression, so 'seeing a future' is very difficult, and rebuilding myself equally so.
I've had good times in my past that now cannot be repeated, I've moved away from so much and not able to travel much nor maintain a social life.
Coping daily with shopping, feeding myself was already becoming hard, perhaps for over a year, then I had to cope with cancer, my 'realisations' hit once that was over.
I have my health and a roof over my head right now, so I'm more fortunate than some and could call that a positive, though trying to live one day at a time is very tough to manage and not what I've been used to.
Thanks for asking
Sorry that you have been through so much. Congratulations for making it through cancer.
Thank you, think my main battles are ongoing and hope to find some light soon.
Having a bit of a hard time 
Having a Terrible Time
Anxiety is at an all time high
Night time loneliness. 
Need ideas to occupy time
