I got home and I started to feel sad sl and guilty. I tried to supress myself from crying because my family is sick of it and I don't want my father try to hit me. I'm scared of that.
My father think that I forgot the things he told me one night when I was studying and he got home drunk. I remebered clearly. He told me that he doesn't expect a s**t from me, that I don't whort a s**t, that I'm useless. I was crying very hard when he was telling me that that and I thought he was going to hit me but for some reason he didn't. My mother and my sister did not say a thing.
So I tried to stay calm. When I get to bed I started to cry.
Why? Why? Why?
Why do I feel like this? How did I end up like this?