I'm new to this being open about my problems thing so bare with me. I feel like I'm a fraud. A fake. A liar. For basically my entire life I've pretended to be okay or happy when in reality I've had this inner turmoil that I've been trying to conceal because I'm afraid it will scare people away. I fear being rejected and often have panic attacks in the middle of the night about it. I'm more and more concerned with my anxiety and how I deal with it because I feel like it's getting worse. I fear one day I won't have the strength to fight it anymore. My hope is that I can finally get some help as I clearly can't do this on my own anymore. I'm not one to ask for help so it's a really tough thing for me to do. I want to feel contentment. I'm not even asking for happiness, I just want to feel like I'm okay. I feel like that's not too much to ask for.