So I'm 21 and the last time this happened was my birthday. I called my mum and told her I was struggling. It wasn't financial (it never has been) it was emotional. My nan has known about my mental health problems for a long time. She was contemplating having me sectioned. I was thinking about suicide a lot in the past. It wasn't just the odd thought like just doing it there and then. It was always thoroughly planned out. What I would do for my last day. Who I would see. What would I want people to know when I do it? Do I leave a text to be blunt or do I write to everyone and explain why I chose it? My mind would circulate these ideas for weeks. Inferences on how everyone would see me, how I can explain it so they can understand I have no other way out. It happene before that when I was 14. I overdosed on my medication with a 12 page explanation as to why. I feel like I'm screaming for help but I can't ask unless something is wrong with me. I also can't do it in case there isn't. How do I know what to Do? I feel lost and everyone just sees a ghost.