Tired of feeling anxious

[Msheatherlady]

I have an up and down relationship with my anxiety and right now it's down. I have these constant feelings of anxiety that make me feel so uncomfortable. My anxiety is something I've been dealing with for years but lately, it seems it's constantly be aggravated by things going on in my life. I've been looking for a new job recently and it's been very stressful to deal with. I also have my grandparents that I worry about since I live with them. My grandfather has Alzheimers and my grandmother may need to have surgery on her carotid artery and it's something that I worry about. My most recent worry is dealing with a new counselor since I just found out today that mine will no longer be at the agency that I'm at. I'd only had a few meetings with her but I felt like I was making a good connection with her and it's upsetting to know that I won't be seeing her anymore. I feel like I put so much into this counselor after my previous negative experience with a counselor and now I feel let down and sad and worried about starting all over again.

[Drt1n1]

Wow. Thats... Not good. To get it out of the way, I am sypathetic. I'm sorry you have to deal with all of that. I can relate a little, but not nearly as much as I wish I did. I want to give advice, but I can't really. Your problems are nothing like mine. I want to give encouragement, but I know that you don't want to be treated like a child who can't deal with their own problems. The one thing I can say is that you should deal with your fear. Sounds dumb, right? Of course you are already living with it, and you've even gone to counseling for it. That's brave, believe it or not. Do you know how much easier it would be to just not tell anyone and stay silent? Way easier. It would also be way worse, because that way you wouldn't be dealing with your anxiety, just living with it. But you're strong, stronger than you think, and you've refused to just sit passively by as fear controls you. Now you may not believe me(after all, I'm just some anonamous guy on a website) but things will get better. Sooner than you expect, too. Just focus on what you can do now to make tomorrow better, and it will be.

[Msheatherlady]

Thank you for the response, I truly appreciate it. You're words honestly made me smile because sometimes I forget to remember how far I've come because I'm too busy worrying about how far I still have to go. I'm trying to take it day by day and that's all I can do.