I've Lost All Hope

[Minileah1218]

I honestly don't think I'll ever get better. My therapist has already told me that I'll have reoccurrences of depression even when I'm much older, and that scares me. I want it to be gone for good. I've been on Prozac for a while now so I'm frightened I'll never get off of it bc it's what's keeping me alive. Without the medicine, I don't think I'd get through my life without attempting. I'd be more likely to self harm too. I honestly feel like every day I'm struggling to find reasons to be alive and stay happy, but every time I look I get the same result. Nothing. I honestly don't see why God can't just take me. I want to check out of life FOREVER. I just can't do this anymore. That's something I tell myself every day. I pray every night before I go to bed that I won't wake up, but I always do. I know there's a reason I'm here bc of that, but honestly ... I don't care anymore.

[Minileah1218]

Idk why it put on there that I have bipolar bc I don't. Just major depressive disorder.