I feel like I'm crumbling.

[marvel_lover]

I just started a new job about two weeks ago which I was so excited about but ever since I started it, my anxiety has been making me physically ill everyday. I can barely eat and every time I do I get sick. The therapist I see is great but I can't see her very often due to insurance/financial problems and sadly the office she's at is really horrible when it comes to getting in contact with them... I don't know what to do.

Nothing I've ever tried seems to work. Everything seems really hopeless and whenever I talk to my friends or family they don't understand. They don't know what to say or they say that I'm not trying hard enough.

I'm so anxious right now I can't even get all my thoughts on here correctly and I'm so frustrated. I'm exhausted. I'm so exhausted. I don't like living this way. I just want to function normally for once in my life without feeling ill while doing it. I want to make people proud of me.

[Lzrdlvr]

Maybe a stupid question but do you know why youre feeling so anxious? Is it the changes or all the new things your having to do and learn?

As for making people proud, i know i would be proud of anyone in my life who had that hard of a time just getting up and living everyday but still choosing to. Youre brave to not let your anxiety tell you what you're going to do and fighting through it.