I don't know what to do

[Meilla]

Hello. I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was about 13-14ish. It's only gotten worse. I've gone to a psychologist, a therapist and neither have helped. I've been on lots of medications and nothing helps. I feel like crying all the time, like I'm drowning and it keeps getting thicker and thicker and that I'm not able even see the surface anymore. I don't like getting attached to people because time after time they leave. Even after they promise not to. I've had several ex's including an ex fiance emotionally abuse me and cheat on me Then tell people I did. Now I can't get involved with local groups i was in because most of them hate me and will not hear my side or think less of him. I've actually recived hate messages. I have tried reaching out to different support groups and even friends and I'm usually brushes aside and ignored so I dont know what to do anymore. I'm having anxiety so bad I'm having trouble breathing just thinking about the few people I am attached to leaving.

[Hidden]

Listen you got to stop letting people ruin your mental health you know the truth and that's what matters ok it don't matter damn diddly hoop what anyone else thinks or be leaves ok if you know you were true and he wasant and everyone else be leaves him and not you , well more power to you my dear ? And more fool them ok .laugh at them in that case as their are all fools being fooled and only you and he of course know it .

But let me say this ?

Their are a lot of good people out their in the world ok a whole heap of them fact.

Don't go giving up on people and giving up on your life just because one arsehole has hurt you ? Get real will ya !!!!!!!!

Get strong get pretty get out their get involved in your and I quote YOUR LIFE ?

LOSE THE LOT OF THEM IF THATS HOW THEIR MAKING YOU FEEL AND START AGAIN .

Next time round you may get lucky and find yourself better people and I think you will ?

Chin up march on and go for it live your life lady it's yours ?

[Shelfie9]

After my last relationship ended I told myself to take a year off and get my shit together, I realized one of my biggest problems was keeping negative an shitty people around me. I'd like to ask you to think about how these people make you feel, it sounds similar to me that they only bring you down and increase your anxiety. Move away and beyond, find people who make you feel good and be with them more. I realize as I write this to you I am happier alone when I don't have to constantly question why this person I care and give so much too keeps disappointing me. I need to remember that quality is more important and when you value yourself others can only do the same but you have to have standards. It is hard an scary but ok doing it and I am sure it is better than my alternatives. ❤️