I'm new here to this community and i need help. I dealt with depression since 12 years old. I was bullied in school which made my depression worse and gave me anxiety. I still have depression and anxiety. I have ZERO self esstem and i HATE myself. I have body image issues and its really affecting my life and my family doesn't understand. They know i have depression but they verbal abuse me sometimes and act like i don't have it. They say I'm lazy and stuff but don't believe me when i say its hard to get out of bed and do other daily activities. I have no one to talk to. I don't really know what i wanna do with my life either. Since i can remember i always felt ugly inside and out. I have been on anti depressiants but i stopped taking it( i know thats bad), and i struggle every since day with depression and anxiety in every aspect of my life. Please help.