Throughout my whole life, I've been behind closed doors as far as expressing myself goes. I've developed this subconscious reaction to close myself off to people whenever I get the chance to show what I'm all about. So now I'm constantly telling myself, "why can't you be yourself?" The more I asked this the more I found that I was unable to answer it. I think for the first time in my life, I really don't know who I am. I look around and I see many people embracing their identities and doing what they love. But I feel like an empty shell of a person, like I have no identity or meaning. Buddhist monk, scientist, artist, sheep a part of the flock, which of them am I? Maybe I should embrace all of them in some way. That Buddhist part of me is really telling me that my lack of identity is a good thing. Maybe then I can fully integrate myself as one with the universe, rather than setting myself apart.