I am tired mentally and physically. I feel as though I am a walking time bomb anything can set me off and ruin a perfectly good day. I hate that I start every morning with a negative thought of when will anxiety kick in, I wish I could stop it but I can't because I know the nature of the beast, I know it can come whenever it likes. I'm tired of my girlfriend worrying about what she'll see when she comes home when I've had a dark day. I used to be so strong so tough, and now if I smell, touch or even feel something familiar my anxiety gets triggered and I break down and cry like a child that has lost his mom. I am tired of being tired.