I'm not really sure what else to do, besides write my feelings out here.
I thought that I was past all this. I have been dealing with depression since I was 13. I told my parents I wanted to kill myself and they told me just to deal, and that as I got older it would get better.
I have been sexual assaulted by a boyfriend, and family member.
I thought that was going to be my end.
Instead I pushed forward. I am now married, I have been for three years, to a wonderful and supporting husband. However within the last three months all my fears, anxiety, and depression have come back in full fury.
I haven't stopped wanted to disappear, to stop dealing with my life.
I'm having nightmares, anxiety attacks, and I don't know how much more I can take.
I'm so lonely, and scared, and I am just broken.
I don't know what else to do.....
Any advice will be helpful.