Just triing to find answers

Im ed i have depression anxiety and panic attacks mostly the depression kicks my ass ive come to the point where i dont care if i die but i wont do it myself. I have beautiful dayghters i wont do that too but lately im affraid one day ill give in. Not sure what to do thanks for listening

[Hidden]

Hi I am sorry you haven't had a reply yet but it could be because you have given very little information about your circumstances. Have you seen a doctor and are you getting any medical help etc? If not then you need to go.

Also have a look online at mindfulness, meditation, and yoga. These might all help.

[BonnieSue]

Hi Ed, when you think about not living, you might want to give one of these numbers a call: 1.800.273.8255 and 1.800.784.2433. Counselors are at the other end. Talking may help you keep strong and not want to give in one day. Please write these numbers down and keep them somewhere safe so you can call whenever you need them.

Have you seen a doctor for your depression, anxiety and panic attacks? You feel really crummy and you need medical help with this. You can't fight this all on your own...no one can. You're clinically depressed and need to be treated by a doctor, ideally a psychiatrist because that's the doctor most highly trained and educated to diagnose and select the right medicine for you. I hope you have a psychiatrist already, and a counselor, too. Get back to me, will you? I'd like to know you're on the mend, both for your sake but also for your daughters and your wife's, too.

[Hidden in reply to BonnieSue]

Im on meds but i dont talk to anyone about whats going threw my head they just dont get it and i especially dont let my daughters knoe cause i dont want them to worry about me its my job to worry about them i have good days and bad but i try to keep going and its hard but i do it for my girls

[BonnieSue in reply to Hidden]

I understand the need for privacy, especially from the girls. Of course there is much you will never let them know. Just as there's much my sons will never know. We are the parents. But it's dangerous for you to isolate yourself. And I believe you know that.

You've revealed your personal problems here on the internet and you didn't lock your post. Now it's available to the whole internet... your boss, wife and kids can run across it by accident or on purpose. Going to a counselor who is sworn to keep your personal info private would be 1000 times safer. You talk in the privacy of their office and it's just you two. You only talk about very personal things once you have decided you can really talk to and trust this counselor.

Mine is fabulous and has seen me through thick and thin. She's priceless. She thinks about the everyday healthy things I might leave out of an equation and she brings balance where it's needed. And so much more. She brings up resources I would never know in a million years. She seems to know everyone in several counties. So knowledgeable and helpful. Such heart. What you've already said you couldn't possibly say anything more private to a counselor. You've already revealed it to a lot of us without requiring privacy. You have nothing to lose and so much to gain. You'd gain someone who'll support you through the good and the bad times. Who understands you. Don't miss out.

[This-babe-runs]

Hi, anytime you feel like talking, send me a note. I will reply as soon as I can. We are in this together!