So I have anxiety and depression for about two years now. I was in a relationship for six years living with my boyfriend. I was madly in love with him and thought he was as well. We would constantly fight because I wanted to get married and have a baby and he would either ignore me or disregard my feelings. Last year I finally had enough I started Prozac and I left him. He never contacted me again, I tried reaching out but he said he was unhappy and didn’t want to be in the relationship anymore. A few months later I met my current boyfriend nick. He is a great guy who loves me does nice things for me and is a good partner. I do love him but its in a different way than my ex. I feel very guarded and I have to have things my way and I feel like I am very selfish now. I would lie if I said I don’t think about my ex almost daily, but I know we will never be together. He is also dating a girl he met on a trip who lives 26 hours away by plan in Australia. My anger is so out of control I don't even know what to do anymore. Everything and anything sets me off and I have been awful to the people I love including my boyfriend. It just seems that anything he does even talking drives me off the deep end. He talks so much and when I’m anxious I can’t focus and he get mad at me for not paying attention. He also fidgets a lot which drives me insane. I was on Prozac for a year and a half and recently stopped about 2 months ago very slowly because it wasn’t helping me anymore. I exercise daily, got a puppy, have a great job, travel often, have a beautiful place to live and I’m still not happy. My heart is constantly racing, along with my mind and emotions. I am on the verge of tears daily for no reason. I take multiple vitamins now that my doctor prescribed but its not helping. I just don’t even know what to do anymore I just want to disappear. no one seems to understand how I feel either they just think I have a great life and have no reason to feel depressed. I constantly question my current relationship because I feel like everyday I feel differently and its so much pressure to be with someone when I feel like this.