I am afraid that I abandon people when I choose to do something that doesn't include them like I feel like I'm leaving them or I'm afraid to commit to them long term and it comes from how I feel about myself. I am shy and like to hide my feelings and don't speak up when I'm suppose to. Right now I have a fear of committing to do things with my family. I'm afraid of them because I am afraid of what they think. I need help and need advice.