I'm just feeling isolated and overwhelmed. I feel like everyone is stronger then me, more ambitious, and courageous, and I'm stagnant. What sucks more is those thoughts drag me down further. Where I have ideas and ambitions, I hide further from change and acceptance. Failure and fear are what loom over me, like a storm I can't out run or find shelter from. I feel if I was alone, my life would be easier. Less overshadowed by others and their opinions and lives. I feel I don't measure up. I'm always going to be behind, needing extra time, needing more understanding and coddling, instead of leading and moving and being the rock for others. I feel so helpless and washed out, I'm exhausted by it. I just want this fog to disappear, and let me be, let me be me.