Hi. I'm new. I've struggled with depression and anger issues my entire life. My depression got 100 times worse when I had my son 10 years ago when I developed postpartum depression which resulted in my parents raising my son. I have extreme anxiety. I've tried so many anti depressants and talked to so many therapists that I've lost track of it all. I'm self destructive at times and as a result, I don't have any friends, not a single one besides my boyfriend which the relationship is totally dysfunctional, but I'm scared to leave because I will be all alone then. My situation with my son really makes it difficult to interact with my family, so I don't go around much. Sometimes I really feel like I need to go to a treatment center but a lot is holding me back. I just really need someone to talk to and someone that can relate to how I'm feeling. Thanks for listening.