So i'm new to this site.... Not sure what to write. But writing helps to organise some of what's going on in my head, i'm sat here wondering where it all went wrong for me?
Ever since being young I have on and off self harmed, restricted my eating, over exercised and never thought there was a problem. Until 1 month ago today I made an attempt on my life, I couldn't see a way out and for me that was meant to be the end!
Now i'm still here and I have honestly never felt so lost, I never planned to still be here and I feel like im drowning all the time, everything is passing me by and i'm trying to carry on but its getting harder. I'm just so tired mentally and physically.
I'm sat here with a blade in my hand fighting what I feel is the only option ...