Anxiety , Depression, Self Harm/Injury

[BethanyLeah]

So i'm new to this site.... Not sure what to write. But writing helps to organise some of what's going on in my head, i'm sat here wondering where it all went wrong for me?

Ever since being young I have on and off self harmed, restricted my eating, over exercised and never thought there was a problem. Until 1 month ago today I made an attempt on my life, I couldn't see a way out and for me that was meant to be the end!

Now i'm still here and I have honestly never felt so lost, I never planned to still be here and I feel like im drowning all the time, everything is passing me by and i'm trying to carry on but its getting harder. I'm just so tired mentally and physically.

I'm sat here with a blade in my hand fighting what I feel is the only option ...

[BonnieSue]

And what did you decide? That you want to stop the blade from hurting you? I hope so! Instead you can call either of these numbers and a trained counselor will be there to talk to you: 1.800.273.8255 and 1.800.784.2433.

This is much better than cutting. Come back to us and find out what it's like to feel good. I can promise you that I will stick by you and be here to write to if that's what you want. I know that's not enough, it's just a little thing that I can offer to you.

I have bipolar II depression and GAD anxiety. But I'm happy and at peace throughout my days. I go through changes of medicine where I feel crummy for awhile but mostly I'm very good. Why are you feeling so bad? Have you had any serious counseling? Ever had your meds do their whole job? Please answer these questions so we can figuire out what needs doing to bring you into a better place.

Tomorrow I'll be travelling so I won't be able to talk during the daytime hours too much but that doesn't mean I've forgotten or deserted you. I'll be back in the early am if I can but definitely in the pm after dark. Hang in there, there IS hope for you.

[crackaLACKING]

It's not the only option. You have people who love and care about you. Tell someone you feel comfortable with. Hold on. It will get better, I promise.