I've never felt like a normal child like outside having fun with friends. I had fear of people to our door or walking down the street and retreated to thebedroom or crossed the street. Later as I got older I stayed mostly in my bedroom rocking frantically for hours and also got into a trance like state. This is how relaxed my tension and anxiety. I'm sure this is inherited somewhat but boy I had a numbing childhood. Trying lots of meds but can't really find the one that will calm me down and enjoy my life .