My day today

[Emdugs1]

I can't write about yesterday, cause that means I am looking at the past. Today I woke up after much sleep medication only let me sleep for a good hour. My jaw aches from clenching it all day and night, my tongue has olcers cause I bite it to stop my teeth from grinding. Shoulders and neck hurt cause I can't relax.

Why?? Cause I have anxiety and depression. Can't sleep all night cause I worry, then the sun comes up and can't get out of bed cause I never slept. Washing my face is an effort, showering takes the life out of me..

I don't know how it happened but it did, I gave up. And don't know how to fix it.

[BonnieSue]

I propose that you're depressed and anxious rather than that you have given up. You are busy with worry because you are engaged in thinking about things that you are concerned about in your life or those you care about and haven't given up on. You are trying to get washed up sometimes or showered to get cleaned up and get the day started rather than just staying in bed and giving up. To my way of thinking, if you'd given up you wouldn't be writing like this, you'd be quietly content to lay in bed and say and do nothing at all.

You seem honestly concerned about your inability to solve the mystery of not being able to rest well enough in order to move on with your day. I don't blame you. It's hard to get up and get going with your day when you're exhausted.

Have you had a check-up lately with your doctor? Have you mentioned this inability to sleep? You might want to do this if you haven't. Possibly your doctor may offer you a prescription that will help you to sleep. But please also mention your anxiety and depression. Give your doctor the whole picture to work with. There are antidepressants that function well at putting you to sleep and they are preferable to drugs like ambien that can cause sleep walking where you don't even know what you did during that time. This happened to my father-in-law. Ambien has caused other problems also, so I'd be careful of that drug, talk it over with your doctor if the subject comes up.

Anxiety and depression usually occur together and you appear to be no exception. They need to be addressed and I hope you see a doctor and also a counselor for these problems. The counselor is immensely helpful for understanding how these problems permeate every part of your life and how not to let them change your life for the bad and how to recognize their effects on you and how to cope with them. There's so much to learn and understand. The doctor is your medication manager only.

I wish you the best possible future and great health and happiness!

[Emdugs1 in reply to BonnieSue]

Thank you very much for replying. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and severe depression and have a close relationship with my doctor. I have also recently had a mental breakdown and did 10 days if inpatient therapy. I have tried many different meds to regulate it and the impatient place was way to quick to prescribe way to much and to get me out. Luckily I am starting intensive outpatient with a therapist and new psychiatrist.

I appreciate you taking the time to write back, and relate.

[ShannonLovesDogs18]

Wow you and I sound like the same person. From what I have learned after living this way for 14 yrs something must of triggered your anxiety and depression.

[BonnieSue]

How wonderful to read that you're on the path to a better future! I'm so sorry to hear you had to go through such pain to get where you are now. But the good part is that you probably have a good therapist and doctor and will heal and feel better and better on your new pathway. Give them a few chances to prove themselves before you decide to let them go, okay? I've been down a similar road and my prayers and thoughts are with you to grow securely and to blossom fully into the person you are meant to be.