I'm 22 years old and have been dealing with anxiety/depression since I was 17 years old. Every couple of years I seem to have a major episode where I can't sleep because my thoughts and worries are flooding me and/or I don't want to get out of bed. My last episode was very bad. I couldn't sleep for three days and eventually had thoughts of suicide as well as hurting others, which I had never had before. This episode forced me to withdraw from a program that involved traveling around the country for a year different helping communities. After this third episode I have become really worried about how my anxiety and depression will alter the course of my life. I have always dreamed of being able to move out of my mom's house and live on my own, but now I'm afraid that I will be robbed of this opportunity. Even thinking about moving out in the future stirs up my anxiety because I'm afraid I'll have some type of mental brake from the stress and crash and burn. I have an older sister who also suffers from mental illness and doesn't work and will probably live with my mom for the rest of her life.
I guess my question to you guys is how has anxiety or depression altered your plans for life? Were there things that you felt like you would never be able to do but still magaged too somehow? And what were the things that you had to concede to? Any advice or experience would be helpful.