Hello, my name is Erika and I have had bouts of extremely low and medium levels of anxiety for as long as I can remember. Self hate, overwhelming weight of ineptitude.

I have a realty tough time keeping life organized as well. Its is compunded, of course, by money and school and trying to be a good mother and wife.

I try for way too long to keep it all from crashing down that eventually the whole support seems to collapse.

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  • Hey, I can relate with the extreme lows and keeping things organized. Have you tried journaling and even using a planner? I know it might not seem effective but when I feel overwhelmed with things sometimes writing it down on paper and making a plan about how to tackle certain tasks help me feel like I have control.

  • The writing helps a lot. Even if it's just for the sake of getting these thoughts out of your head for a little bit. Great outlet.

  • Hey Erika, have you tried any activities showing self-love? The days I can pull myself out of bad for a warm salt bath or pilates, or anything that is for me and my well being are incredibly helpful. Hopefully with consistency over time, it will break down the self hate and the thoughts and actions that spiral with it.

  • Thank you, occasionally I have, but definitely not consistently. Ill give it a try

  • I recommend counseling to move you out of your self-hate. You'll find that you are worth loving. As a creation of God, you have worth far beyond what you know. God doesn't create junk, nor does he make mistakes. You are here for a reason and you probably would like to learn what that is. You have value beyond what you presently know. Wouldn't it be nice to learn more about that value? To learn more about your talents?

    You're trying to be a good wife and mother...doesn't that count for anything positive? I think it does. So where does this self-hate come from? Has someone taught this to you? You really do need counseling badly. You need to drop this self-hate. Why not get started?

  • Hi Erika. Are you seeing a therapist? If not, please think about seeing one. Are you and/or your significant other working? If so, investigate an EAP via your HR office.

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