Hello, my name is Erika and I have had bouts of extremely low and medium levels of anxiety for as long as I can remember. Self hate, overwhelming weight of ineptitude.
I have a realty tough time keeping life organized as well. Its is compunded, of course, by money and school and trying to be a good mother and wife.
I try for way too long to keep it all from crashing down that eventually the whole support seems to collapse.