How does anybody else get through this?
I try so hard. I plan my food. I record everything: what I eat, where I eat, how I feel. I use my CBT, as much as I am able. I really try. And then along comes life ... not huge, big, major problems just nasty, ordinary, everyday ones. The kind that everybody has and copes with fine - a minor irritation. Except I cannot do that. I dwell on everything. I can't let it go. I'm obsessed. I can think of nothing else. I can't settle. I can't sleep. I'm overwhelmed. I can't explain because no-one else understands why it's such a big deal. (Usually I don't know why it is either - it just is.) I twist and turn looking for something to turn it off. I crave self harm and purging the things I know will take it away. I do know how dangerous both these routes are for me now but that doesn't lessen the urge. If anything the longer I hold out the worse the urge becomes. How do I get through this? Everytime this is where I fall back into my loop and I don't know how to get out.
Anybody got any thoughts?