I haven't posted in a long time and thought I was doing well. Family circumstances changed last year and I was able to build confidence and make positive changes to food. I was discharged from the ED service having weight restored in March but I've consistently gained weight each month since.
From purely restricting in the early years to bingeing/purging in the last 2yrs I seem to just binge these days. The destructive negative self talk hasn't improved despite lots of counselling.
I know the principles, and what I should do but sabotage.
I'm overwhelmed, confused, stuck, feeling hopeless and useless at the moment and everything has hit me at once. I'm restricting, bingeing and purging each day right now and don't know what to do.
Think I'm just reaching out from a hopeless situation feeling needy and isolated. Any advice?