I’m about 140ish pounds and 5’10.5 female. Over the last year I’ve lost 30 pounds (goal is 130) , by calorie counting, intermittent fasting, and eating a plant based diet. I started gaining weight a couple years ago when I started college and gained the freshman and hit my highest weight (technically I was on the “healthy” B M I category, but on the high end, now I’m on the low end). I really hated my body and felt really fat, and a couple people in my family noticed that I gained weight. I kept trying to lose it by transitioning to a plant based diet, which helped, but on its own wasn’t enough. Then I started intermittent fasting and calorie counting and that was when I started to notice weight coming off. I feel like intermittent fasting though has been super stressful for me. I’ve always been a breakfast person and I get really hungry in the morning so when I first started, I gave up breakfast, but it got too exhausting for me, so I changed to skipping dinner, which I found to be a little easier. It still can be stressful though because whenever I have to eat dinner at a social event, it can be anxiety inducing. At the beginning of this year in January I started losing my period, and I didn’t get it back until the end of April so went 4 full months without a period. I think it had something to do with me not eating as much and I noticed that when I got it back, it was about a week and a half after Easter, where I started to eat more, especially since Lent was over, and I was attempting to fast a lot more during lent. So far my periods have been really irregular (I had it May and June but had 2 periods in August and none in September/July). , but I’m still working on trying to lose weight and still calorie counting and intermittent fasting. I feel so abnormal with my eating patterns. Whenever I hear people say they don’t eat breakfast I automatically feel insecure about the fact that I do and like there’s something wrong with me for eating in the morning. Some mornings I’ll eat a huge amount of food so it will essentially force me to not eat anything else for the rest of the day so I won’t go above my calories for the day. I kinda just want to be normal and skinny but not worry at every moment that I’m going to gain weight. I also will occasionally throw up if I feel really guilty about eating something, especially if it is a dessert or something. This isn’t too frequent, but I’ve been noticing it more.
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