It has now been a year since I first started recovery and I'm really glad, but when summer comes around I'm starting to feel like crap because I can't get back into my exercising habits and I do physic updates every day in front of the mirror and I hate what I see. Is it normal to want to go back to not eating or wanting to throw up every time you eat anything???
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I used to be able to do that too. I havent been able to reach the goal I wanted to cause Im so insecure about my body and I dont like what I see when I look in the mirror. So then that makes me want to just throw all my hard work away through starvation again or just throwing it up. I try not to feel guilty about the food I eat and just get tp my goal by I always think about going back to how I used to be.
I understand. I have been there many times, and sometimes I have slipped. The further into recovery, the easier it has become. Changing our thinking helps change our behaviors. I used to tell myself, "You will never be able to conquer this." Now, I tell myself, "You can do this." Also, I say, "HALT! Am I H-hungry, A-angry, L-lonely, or T-tired?" Now,...sometimes, I eat eat but eat healthy food; sometimes, I call a friend or pray; sometimes, I read my Bible or go exercise; sometimes, I take a nap. And, in all cases, I tell myself, "You are worthy, enough, and loved." It's helped. Hope this helps you. Again, I understand!