I'm just confused about my eating disorder assessment with my GP..I was referred by another doctor to him but the whole assessment was weird..
He asked things like "Do you like food?" ,"Do you eat meat?"..after saying no ( it's one of my fear foods) he was like "are you a vegetarian?"..then he asked "Are you worried about calories and being fat?"
And I was like no..( I don't count calories anymore, it just leads to binging so I'm not actually worried as long as I don't gain a lot)..
I told him I had concerns about my weight, that I had been on a lot of diets. I constantly check in the mirror to see if I have fat on my tights but when I restrict it's not mainly about calories, it's more about compensating for the food I eat during my emotional eating/ binging episodes, it's a lot about managing my emotions..
I don't worry about single calories or nutrients so much but my goals about my weight are not achievable by eating in a healthy way, so I basically starve myself to maintain a low weight..
I spend half of the day watching videos about fad diets or TV shows like supersize Vs superskinny.. constantly..I think about about my next meal all day..
He weighted me and said I was not so underweight..
I don't know I feel like I still struggle but maybe I don't have a typical eating disorder..i feel it might be disordered eating? I know some people struggle with abnormal eating patterns but they don't necessarily have an eating disorder.
I'm just confused about this being just anxiety..maybe it's me and I'm overreacting..
I don't know what do do, I just want to give up at this point..