Hello!
I am 19 years old and a sophomore in nursing school. Ever since I went to college i have developed really bad eating habits. my first year, i was taking concerta which is prescribed for ADHD which i was never diagnosed with and still given by my physician. I didn’t realize how much it suppressed my appetite, on top of the pills and my busy schedule I hardly ever ate. I came into college weighing 120lbs and ended up being around 100 when i came back. This is a lot for me because i’m very small framed and there’s not a lot of meat on my bones to begin with so i was looking really skinny. Over the summer I worked really hard to gain my weight back and gained about 10 pounds but it was difficult because i had absolutely no appetite and the thought of eating disgusted me. Even when i tried to eat i would gag. This eventually got a little better but my eating patterns and appetite still haven’t completely returned. Now my sophomore year, i have been going through a lot of stress, anxiety and a break up so i haven’t been able to eat and when i do eat i would throw up even if i ate really small amounts. I realize that this is probably just due to stress and not an eating disorder but, My mom and my aunt both had aneroxia and made themselves throw up. I would never think of doing this, i want to gain weight i hate looking so skinny. I still weigh 110 lbs but i can feel my appetite diminishing again and i’m currently taking zafron temporary to help with not throwing up my food. But even with the zafron and even when i feel the sensation of hunger i have no desire or motivation to eat. I know how ridiculous that sounds but i just don’t. Also, when i feel like this sometimes food just tastes SO different to me like it is not an enjoyable experience to eat. sometimes it is but lately it has defiantly been not enjoyable. I am going to see a Gi doctor but part of me thinks i have some kind of “subconscious” or controlling type of eating disorder. idk thoughts??
