I have been in this support group for a few months now. I love it too. I am the woman who is 56 and had been Anorexic for 40 years. I also am recovered. Thanks to 6 years of treatment. Learning to live without it can be a challenge. I am doing it though. I know Christmas is the biggie. The big holiday of the year. I will get through this. I recently divorced. I have a 15- year- old son. He took dad's side through the divorce. I have lost him. He lives an hour from me. He is very busy farming. He has his dream. To farm. Of course, he also is in school. I know the memories of good times during the holidays are wonderful. I have not seen him in over a year. Last Christmas I did not see him. Looks like it will be that way this year too. It hurts. I remember what my doctor said. She said to enjoy the holidays, remember those we love and have a good holiday. I am trying very hard to do just that. I will do my best. I also have a 32-year-old son. He is incarcerated. He has been in 6 years come Jan. 2019. I know he has gone insane by the things he says. Why wouldn't you? Caged like an animal? I remember him too. It will be ok. I recovered from Anorexia just recently after 40 years. I can not go back to that place. Do you have any words to keep me strong through the holidays? I love each one of you. I wish you all a wonderful Christmas. Thank you so much.